Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Should I stay or should I go? Is a question that probably had you thinking about a relationship, on whether or not you should stay with a person or leave them. Well you are not too far off, however in this case I'm referring to my, our relationship with the Heavenly Father. Numbers 9:15-23 talks about how the tent of the Father's promise was set up and a column of smoke that glowed like fire covered it, and how the Israelites watch the column of smoke to see on whether or not it would move or stay. Because whenever the smoke moved from the tent they would break camp and move, and whenever it stopped, they would stop and set up camp.

So they would watch, obey and follow, this column of smoke, by unpacking their belongings and settling in, and then when it was time to move they would pack their things back up and move again whether it was for a day, a few days, some weeks, a month, or even a year. They watch, obeyed, and followed the column of smoke. And as I was reading this it touched my heart and got me thinking about my own relationship with the Father in my life.

First. Am I watching continuously for the Father's will, guidance, instructions, and commands in my life. What he wants me to do with each day that He gives me. Am I faithfully and consistently in His word, praying, talking to Him, meditating, living His word and putting time into our relationship so that I will be able to know and recognize when He tells me to move, where he tells me to go, so that I know for sure it's Him and not me or somebody else.

Second. Will I obey Him when the time comes for me to move or to stay? What if I get too comfortable, content, satisfied with where I was at and didn't want to move. Or what if I was tired because He just kept saying move, move, and I didn't want to move anymore. I didn't want to unpack, put in the effort  and get ready and prepared to obey Him that day because I was a tired or take the chance, even risk on Him because he could say move again, so I wasn't ready to properly obey Him and do what was needed, to be done accordingly for that day.

And lastly, will I follow? You might be thinking, well if I chose to obey then doesn't that mean I chose to follow as well. Not necessarily. I may choose to obey and say okay Father I'll move, or I'll stay but instead of following you, I'm going to do my own thing, go my own way.

Should I stay or should I go? I wonder if that's a question the Israelites asked themselves. But in doing so I must not forget His promises in the forefront. If the Israelites watched the column of smoke as they were supposed then they would have also been looking at the promise that He gave to them, a daily continuous reminder that the Father will fulfill His promise to them and that He is not a man that should lie. And it's the same thing with me. If I continuously be in His word, dedicated and faithful to Him there is no way that I could forget or have doubts about whether or not I should stay or go when He tells me to. But if I did, all I would have to do is look up, look back in His word to remind me, encourage me, strengthen me, comfort me, guide me.

Should I stay or Should I go? Is a question I must ask myself daily and then prepare myself for if and when I do decide to stay with the Father and wait on His will for my life. To watch, obey, and follow Him, whatever it may be, wherever it may lead, and for as long as He says.

The Best Peace

"John 14:27. I'm leaving you peace. I'm giving you my peace. I don't give you the kind of peace that the world gives. So don't be troubled or cowardly.-The Names of God Bible, Ann Spangler"
"KJV John 14. 27. Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."
"NLT John 14:27. "I am leaving you with a gift-peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid."
"NIV John 14:27. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Yeshua commonly known as Jesus Christ says he leaves and give us a peace that the world doesn't give, doesn't provide. And it got me thinking of the peace the world provides and offers to us: There's drugs which allow you to escape to wonderland and not think about your problems, but once the high is gone the problem is still there. And, if you do that drug long enough the physical, emotional, mental, financial, and relational effect and damage it does and gives your life enhances and gives you more of a problem than what you had before. The same with drinking. You can't really drink your sorrows and troubles away because once you're sober they'll still be there, and if you say well I'll never be sober. Why is that? The problem that you're trying to hide from, run away from, and not think about. So still there. Then there's sex, sexual activity and gratification. It might touch and ease the loneliness, hardships, emptiness, void, give you that self worth and value, and a moment's satisfaction, but when it's done and over with, and you're lying alone or in somebody's arms, or even back to back, the problem is still the same and has not changed. And sex can also have a deadly sickly effect and damage on us as well.

But the peace, the peace that we were left with, given from Yeshua-Jesus, is a peace that gives us rest, calm, strength, joy, growth, courage. That the problem when put in the hands of our Heavenly Father through and because of him will take care of it. We don't have to worry about it,  and though there may be tears, hardships, and pain, he provides comfort, shelter, and refuge in the rain. And soon one day that problem will no longer be a problem anymore. And the peace that he gives, allows us not to worry or fret if we don't understand because he'll work it out and all would be made known in the end. 

I can't speak for anybody else but I know with me. I've tried drugs, cigarettes, sex, partying,  clubbing, and liquor to bring me peace and it was only for a moment, but the consequences from those choices would've, could have, and still could be detrimental to my life, my health, and even my relationship with the Yahweh my Heavenly Father, blessed be His holy name. Sp I'm thankful that in the end I was given the chance to choose the peace that our Heavenly Father offers and gives through His Son Yeshua-Jesus, instead of the peace this world offers and the death that it brings, not only spiritually but also mentally, emotionally, physically, with relationships, and financially too that could have, would've, and still could be brought to me. 

A Liar, Cheater, Whore, Thief, Murderer, or a Harolot. Which One Are You?

“KJV Joshua 2:1. And Joshua the son of Nun sent out of Shittim two men to spy secretly, saying, Go view the land, even Jericho. And they went, and came into an harlot's house, named Rahab, and lodged there. 2. And it was told the king of Jericho, saying, Behold, there came men in hither to night of the children of Israel to search out the country. 3. And the king of Jericho sent unto Rahab, saying, Bring forth the men that are come to thee, which are entered into thine house: for they be come to search out all the country. 4. And the woman took the two men, and hid them, and said thus, There came men unto me, but I wist not whence they [were]: 5. And it came to pass [about the time] of shutting of the gate, when it was dark, that the men went out: whither the men went I wot not: pursue after them quickly; for ye shall overtake them. 6. But she had brought them up to the roof of the house, and hid them with the stalks of flax, which she had laid in order upon the roof. 7. And the men pursued after them the way to Jordan unto the fords: and as soon as they which pursued after them were gone out, they shut the gate. 8. And before they were laid down, she came up unto them upon the roof; 9. And she said unto the men, I know that the LORD hath given you the land, and that your terror is fallen upon us, and that all the inhabitants of the land faint because of you. 10. For we have heard how the LORD dried up the water of the Red sea for you, when ye came out of Egypt; and what ye did unto the two kings of the Amorites, that [were] on the other side Jordan, Sihon and Og, whom ye utterly destroyed. 11. And as soon as we had heard [these things], our hearts did melt, neither did there remain any more courage in any man, because of you: for the LORD your God, he [is] God in heaven above, and in earth beneath. 12. Now therefore, I pray you, swear unto me by the LORD, since I have shewed you kindness, that ye will also shew kindness unto my father's house, and give me a true token: 13. And [that] ye will save alive my father, and my mother, and my brethren, and my sisters, and all that they have, and deliver our lives from death. 14. And the men answered her, Our life for yours, if ye utter not this our business. And it shall be, when the LORD hath given us the land, that we will deal kindly and truly with thee. 15. Then she let them down by a cord through the window: for her house [was] upon the town wall, and she dwelt upon the wall. 16. And she said unto them, Get you to the mountain, lest the pursuers meet you; and hide yourselves there three days, until the pursuers be returned: and afterward may ye go your way. 17. And the men said unto her, We [will be] blameless of this thine oath which thou hast made us swear. 18. Behold, [when] we come into the land, thou shalt bind this line of scarlet thread in the window which thou didst let us down by: and thou shalt bring thy father, and thy mother, and thy brethren, and all thy father's household, home unto thee. 19. And it shall be, [that] whosoever shall go out of the doors of thy house into the street, his blood [shall be] upon his head, and we [will be] guiltless: and whosoever shall be with thee in the house, his blood [shall be] on our head, if [any] hand be upon him. 20. And if thou utter this our business, then we will be quit of thine oath which thou hast made us to swear. 21. And she said, According unto your words, so [be] it. And she sent them away, and they departed: and she bound the scarlet line in the window.

Joshua 6:16. And it came to pass at the seventh time, when the priests blew with the trumpets, Joshua said unto the people, Shout; for the LORD hath given you the city. 17. And the city shall be accursed, [even] it, and all that [are] therein, to the LORD: only Rahab the harlot shall live, she and all that [are] with her in the house, because she hid the messengers that we sent. 20. So the people shouted when [the priests] blew with the trumpets: and it came to pass, when the people heard the sound of the trumpet, and the people shouted with a great shout, that the wall fell down flat, so that the people went up into the city, every man straight before him, and they took the city. 21. And they utterly destroyed all that [was] in the city, both man and woman, young and old, and ox, and sheep, and ass, with the edge of the sword. 22. But Joshua had said unto the two men that had spied out the country, Go into the harlot's house, and bring out thence the woman, and all that she hath, as ye sware unto her. 23. And the young men that were spies went in, and brought out Rahab, and her father, and her mother, and her brethren, and all that she had; and they brought out all her kindred, and left them without the camp of Israel. 24. And they burnt the city with fire, and all that [was] therein: only the silver, and the gold, and the vessels of brass and of iron, they put into the treasury of the house of the LORD. 25. And Joshua saved Rahab the harlot alive, and her father's household, and all that she had; and she dwelleth in Israel [even] unto this day; because she hid the messengers, which Joshua sent to spy out Jericho.”

“KJV Acts 9:19. And when he had received meat, he was strengthened. Then was Saul certain days with the disciples which were at Damascus. 20. And straightway he preached Christ in the synagogues, that he is the Son of God. 21. But all that heard [him] were amazed, and said; Is not this he that destroyed them which called on this name in Jerusalem, and came hither for that intent, that he might bring them bound unto the chief priests? 22. But Saul increased the more in strength, and confounded the Jews which dwelt at Damascus, proving that this is very Christ.

Acts 22:1. Men, brethren, and fathers, hear ye my defence [which I make] now unto you. 2. (And when they heard that he spake in the Hebrew tongue to them, they kept the more silence: and he saith,) 3. I am verily a man [which am] a Jew, born in Tarsus, [a city] in Cilicia, yet brought up in this city at the feet of Gamaliel, [and] taught according to the perfect manner of the law of the fathers, and was zealous toward God, as ye all are this day. 4. And I persecuted this way unto the death, binding and delivering into prisons both men and women. 5. As also the high priest doth bear me witness, and all the estate of the elders: from whom also I received letters unto the brethren, and went to Damascus, to bring them which were there bound unto Jerusalem, for to be punished. 6. And it came to pass, that, as I made my journey, and was come nigh unto Damascus about noon, suddenly there shone from heaven a great light round about me. 7. And I fell unto the ground, and heard a voice saying unto me, Saul, Saul, why persecutest thou me? 8. And I answered, Who art thou, Lord? And he said unto me, I am Jesus of Nazareth, whom thou persecutest. 9. And they that were with me saw indeed the light, and were afraid; but they heard not the voice of him that spake to me. 10. And I said, What shall I do, Lord? And the Lord said unto me, Arise, and go into Damascus; and there it shall be told thee of all things which are appointed for thee to do. 11. And when I could not see for the glory of that light, being led by the hand of them that were with me, I came into Damascus. 12. And one Ananias, a devout man according to the law, having a good report of all the Jews which dwelt [there], 13. Came unto me, and stood, and said unto me, Brother Saul, receive thy sight. And the same hour I looked up upon him. 14. And he said, The God of our fathers hath chosen thee, that thou shouldest know his will, and see that Just One, and shouldest hear the voice of his mouth. 15. For thou shalt be his witness unto all men of what thou hast seen and heard. 16. And now why tarriest thou? arise, and be baptized, and wash away thy sins, calling on the name of the Lord.”

Man I was just lying in bed trying to fall asleep and it’s not working. I started to think about everything I am and have done wrong. I’m a thief because I’ve stolen before, I’m a liar, I’m a cheater, I’m a murder, I’ve committed adultery before, before I met my husband, I slept with a man who was married and didn’t know it, I was a whore because I slept around and had sex before I was married, and I was a harlot or a prostitute.  I may have not slept with men for money or drugs, but I did sleep with them for self-worth, to feel and made me think I was valued and loved. And it got me thinking, some of the most vile, wrong doing people were also used by our Father, blessed by Him and were saved because of Him and their choice to do right, make a change, and take a chance. Paul came to my mind and so did Rahab the prostitute, and I was like, I can relate to these people and since I can relate to these people then I should be and can be just as dedicated to the Father as they were. There’s still a chance for me. I should be and need to be reading their stories, because I can personally relate to them.  And I’m sure, so positive that all of us can find somebody to relate to in the word of God as well to be encouraged and strengthened in the Lord, and be on fire for him with each day that he blesses us with.

So I ask the question again. Are you a liar, a cheater, a whore, a thief, a murderer, a prostitute, or something else? If so admit, confess, and repent, because our Father still loves you, still wants to save you, change you, mold you, and use you for His glory honor and praise. And I just sincerely pray and hope that you will let him and please do the same for me as well. 

You Don't Know My Praise

Well the weekend is here and time to go to church. With me being a preacher's daughter I was raised in the church. So I've seen how so many people get their praise and worship on. As a child I snickered and made fun but as I grew older, went through my own stuff, and our Father bringing me out, I understand. But the thing is, now I was afraid to get my praise and worship on. Especially since now I go to a church that's more reserved. However this all changed when a sister asked me to head Women's Prayer Group one day and I didn't know what to talk about. Well Daddy gave me something through a book called "Women of Courage 31 Daily Devotionals By Jennifer Carter" and in her book she picks out different women in the Bible and how we can relate to them today. Well while doing this, reading this I was able to apply one story to my own life when it comes to how I praise and worship and that is the story of Mary and when she used oil to anoint the Messiah. 

“Luke 7:36. And one of the Pharisees desired him that he would eat with him. And he went into the Pharisee's house, and sat down to meat. 37. And, behold, a woman in the city, which was a sinner, when she knew that [Jesus] sat at meat in the Pharisee's house, brought an alabaster box of ointment, 38. And stood at his feet behind [him] weeping, and began to wash his feet with tears, and did wipe [them] with the hairs of her head, and kissed his feet, and anointed [them] with the ointment. 39. Now when the Pharisee which had bidden him saw [it], he spake within himself, saying, This man, if he were a prophet, would have known who and what manner of woman [this is] that toucheth him: for she is a sinner. 40. And Jesus answering said unto him, Simon, I have somewhat to say unto thee. And he saith, Master, say on. 41. There was a certain creditor which had two debtors: the one owed five hundred pence, and the other fifty. 42. And when they had nothing to pay, he frankly forgave them both. Tell me therefore, which of them will love him most? 43. Simon answered and said, I suppose that [he], to whom he forgave most. And he said unto him, Thou hast rightly judged. 44. And he turned to the woman, and said unto Simon, Seest thou this woman? I entered into thine house, thou gavest me no water for my feet: but she hath washed my feet with tears, and wiped [them] with the hairs of her head. 45. Thou gavest me no kiss: but this woman since the time I came in hath not ceased to kiss my feet. 46. My head with oil thou didst not anoint: but this woman hath anointed my feet with ointment. 47. Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, [the same] loveth little. 48. And he said unto her, Thy sins are forgiven.”

When I read this I was like wow. This women faced ridicule, lies, bad remarks and even death to praise and worship the Messiah, and get him ready for his death and burial in the only way she knew how and was able to do for him. The Messiah saved her from being stoned because she was accused of being caught in adultery and he asked those who wanted to stone her if any of them was without sin to cast the first stone. And guess what no stone was cast, John 8:11. And that was so profound, it hit me like a ton bricks. So when I shared this when it was my time they were like hey we didn't even think to look at that scripture that way. And man was I tested that weekend at church. The pastor started to sing "I Give Myself Away by William McDowell" and man that song just touches me and moves me every time. And I was timid man, that fear and queasiness in my stomach was going on and then I remembered the our Prayer Group that Tuesday before and my son, because he was with me and I was holding, and in my head I was thinking I was just talking about this and I don't want my son to be afraid to praise and worship, but most importantly I didn't want to scared to be scared anymore. I didn't want to be too afraid to praise and give thanks for everything the Lord has done for me and brought me through. So I got up with tears falling down my eyes, singing, with thanksgiving in my heart and got my praise on. And what was so cool about it, was that even my son got his praise and worship on too and it was so cool. 

So to all and even to myself I believe that we should be encouraged to praise and worship whenever and wherever we can when it is moved and put upon our hearts. Because nobody knows what we've been through truly whether mentally, emotionally, physically, financially, and spiritually, only our Father in Heaven knows and only He knows how much the life and blood of His son, His mercy, forgiveness, grace, second chance, and love that was shown and give to us through His son has touched and changed our lives, transformed us, and that is always something to be thankful for, to give praise, and worship the Lord for. 

WHO IS MY ENEMY?

“I am my own worst enemy.” Is the saying that runs through my mind as I’m lying in bed trying to fall asleep. But as I began to think more on this I realize this is a lie, I am not my own worst enemy. And then thinking that this quote is bondage and a trap that enslaves me. Because the word of God says that my enemy, my opponent is the devil.

1 Peter 5:8. Keep your mind clear, and be alert. Your opponent the devil is prowling around like a roaring lion as he looks for someone to devour. –The Names of God Bible, Ann Spangler
1 Peter 5:8. Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:-KJV
Ephesians 6:12. This is not a wrestling match again a human opponent. We are wrestling with rulers, authorities, the powers who govern this world of darkness, and spiritual forces that control in the heavenly world. –The Names of God Bible, Ann Spangler.
Ephesians 6:12. For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].-KJV 

Definition of Opponent:

1.      A person who is on an opposing side in a game, contest, controversy, or the like; adversary

2.      Being opposite, as in position

3.      Opposing; adverse; antagonistic

So the word tells me that my opponent and my adversary are one and the same and that is the devil. But not myself. I am flesh and blood, the devil is not. I was born in the image of my Creator.


Genesis 1:26. And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. 27. So God created man in his [own] image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.-KJV
Genesis 1:26. Then Elohim said, "Let us make humans in our image, in our likeness. Let them rule the fish in the sea, the birds in the sky, the domestic animals all over the earth, and all the animals that crawl on the earth. 27. So Elohim created humans in his image. In the image of Elohim he created them. He created them male and female.-The Names of God Bible, Ann Spangler

So thinking of this scripture I'm asking myself, if my Creator created me in His image, then is my Creator my enemy? If I am meant to be and can be more like and be able to be more like Him through His Son the Messiah and Savior Yeshua, commonly known as Jesus Christ then how can I be my own worst enemy? How can my Creator be my enemy? So many times I've said this to myself when I've failed, turned to my self-destructive ways to seek, kill, and destroy myself like an enemy does and is what the devil does, and is what I do to myself as well when I believe I'm my own worst enemy,when I've messed up, and hear it be said to me and on me that I began to believe it, and then when I do I began to lose, lose faith, lose hope and turn to my self-destructive ways because I don't think that I can and could never be who the Creator originally wanted me to be when He first created us and what's available now through His Son. To have that relationship with Him that Adam and Eve had before they disobeyed because of the enemy. 

But because of Yeshua I am able to be reconciled back to the Heavenly Father and have that relationship with him. But how can if I continue to see and believe myself to be and as my own worst enemy when my enemy is the devil. I've just realized that this quote is such a big contradiction to what I'm reading, learning, trying to live, and trying to believe-be living it. That this quote is not helping me at all but hindering me and keeping me away from my Father, keeping me separated from Him. Because if I continue to be, see, think, and believe that I'm my own enemy then I will be an enemy of and to God. He didn't make me or create me to be His enemy. He created me to please Him. Praise Him, worship Him, Obey Him, Glorify Him, and take care of the rest of His creation, land, plants, animals, family, friends, etc. But not to be an enemy to Him or to myself. So why would I, do I, want to,or even put that upon myself? Make myself carry that burden? Have that thought, that mind frame, that role?

Realizing this, I have to ask myself who truly is my enemy? And what steps can I do, must take, undo, and change to fix that, to rewire my thoughts. To know and understand that it is not myself that I’m wrestling against but the real enemy of God, the devil. Because he’s the one that’s the adversary and the opponent, in opposition of Him. And since I want to be more like my Creator, want to be called, seen, and act as a child of my Father, then the devil is my enemy too. And that is what I must fight, must pray against, and must stand on His word with, so that I don’t become an enemy of/to my Creator. And in doing that, I must no longer be an enemy to myself. Because I do what to do good, what is righteous and good in His eyes, and like Paul said I do war with myself. I don’t do the good I want to do but instead I do the bad and when I continue to think I’m my own enemy then I will continue to do bad too. If I continue to have that negative mindset than I won’t change, I won’t accept, I won’t learn, I won’t grow, I won’t stay obedient and faithful. I will be in the opposition of what The Father says and requires. And I don’t want to do that anymore…I don’t want to do it anymore…I don’t want to be my own worst enemy anymore.

A Preview of JUDGEMENT DAY

Alright folks, now I know I've been just giving small tidbits of my book. Bur now, I'm going to share with you the first 8 pages of it. And no it won't be giving away the whole book. This is just a tip of the iceberg and it get's better but hey I guess you'll have to get it and read on, but until then, enjoy!

"We all messed up
We all took a dive
We all got a ticket
For front seat of hell’s ride
We didn’t pass God’s test
We didn’t follow His commandments
And now He’s punishing us
And showing us no mercy
The human race has lost
We messed up our second chance
Now the human race
Is about to end
We’re all about to die
But not a quick or swift death
He’s going to make us suffer
Like we made Him suffer
Causing pain, tears, and heartache

Day turns to night
Blood stains the moon and sky
People run to their homes
To watch death go by
But they can’t hide
God knows every spot and place
To find the human race
He’s going to teach us a lesson
But harder than the first
And have a longer end
Are you ready for hell’s victory ride?

God starts out first
His wrath is fragile
And will hurt less
But still hurts all the same
He still loves His children
But has to teach once again

First He sends His angels
To smite out all evil
Then He sends down
Rain and plagues
To wipe out the second evil
And as He sends down the next wave
He stops it in a beat
He looks down at His work
That’s all too familiar with thee
Tears start to come from His eyes
As He viewed the rest of our kind
He starts to rethink
And might have a new strategy
He looked down at hell
And held His head high
“You can take your ride”
The devil looked up
With a cheesy grin on his face
“Well it’s about time”

God started to walk away
As the devil gave out a cry
And He didn’t stop to watch
As swords, spears, and knives
Fall from the sky

The devil hopped on his chariot
And rode up to earth
To his new home
And new playground
Ready to have, the time of his life

But up above
The moon, stars, and sky
God redoes His next test
He thought it through this time
It won’t be up to the human kind
To decide the fate
For all mankind
He made a new rule
Printed a new law
And He made sure
The news bounced off the walls
Now all He had to do
Was tell the little guy downstairs
He brought a handful of angels
To stand by his side
As they flew down to earth
To stop hell’s victory ride

The ground started to shake
As demons flew back
The devil looked around
And growled with anger
“What is going on here?”
The angels held off the rest
While God stood in front of the devil
“Your time is being shortened”
The devil laughed
“Ha, you had your time
Now it’s my time”
God didn’t smile
And didn’t budge an inch
“With this new way
You can have all the time in the world”
“What new way?”
God stood in the middle of the earth
“From now on,
Humans shall decide their fate
Good and evil will just guide them”
“You expect me to go along with this?”
God looked him in the eyes
“You have no choice”
“No!”
And the devil attacked God

They fought on the ground
And in the air
They rearranged the whole planet
God punched him
Then they stood face to face
“This is the new law
And it shall be followed”

The demons flew towards God
As the angels flew after them
“Let it be,” He said

Darkness washed over
Lightning came down
And rain flooded the earth
God made Himself and the devil one
As they flew up in the sky
Where they spanned and spanned

While in the air
Earth was being remade
Fire and light were separated
Good and evil were two different clouds
The beings flew up in the sky
Joining their rightful place

The cloud of fire
Went back to the depths below
As the cloud of light
Went up above

Earth was remade
Almost the best
Good and evil took their place
And guided their people

It was about that time again
To fight the good fight
But earth had to wait
Till three children were born

For thousands of years
They have waited
For their king and queen
But it just couldn’t be anybody
These beings were special
And had to pass and go through
Many tests
And overcome many trials

As suffering started
And war began
As hearts were broken
And tears were flowing
As people were fighting
And bodies were dying
Good and evil waited

The time is here
And the time is now
Are you ready to watch?
Are you ready to hear?
And are you ready to listen?

This is a story
You’ll never forget
So grab a chair
And let us begin"-JUDGEMENT DAY © 2012

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P.S. My mother in law advised me that this part was confusing. Do you guys feel the same way? If so I apologize not my intention however it all will fall into place with a series I'm writing after it called THE AWAKENING SERIES.

All Writings Aside

As a writer, writing is how I let out my emotions my feelings, even prayers. I used to think that that was good enough and if not I could always read it back to the Heavenly Father. However now, that I'm older, a bit wiser, learning, and getting closer to him strengthening my relationship with him. I've come to see at least for me personally I've been cheating him, and not giving my all to him. Going to him first. And not only that but I've been cheating myself as well. Cheating myself out of the peace, joy, comfort, and happiness that he can give and provide when I unload confide and trust in him. And no longer can I use an excuse about not having the right words to say because the Ruach Qodesh-Holy Spirit will intercede for me and make my moaning and groaning understandable from me to Him. 
"Romans 8:26. At the same time the Spirit also helps us in our weakness, because we don't know how to pray for what we need. But the Spirit intercedes along with our groans that cannot be expressed in words. 27. The one who searches our hearts knows what the Spirit has in mind. The Spirit intercedes for God's people the way God wants him to."-The Names of God Bible, Ann Spangler.

So at least for me, no song, no story, and no poem can ever replace the time relationship and prayer of going to Abba-Father directly. And when I do, I've come to find out that whatever inspiration I get out of that or from it so much better. Thank you and peace joy maturity growth and love to you from our Heavenly Father through his son the Messiah and our Lord and Savior Yeshua-Jesus Christ..